My emotional collapse

So.. after so long feeling a numbing pain in the gaping hole where my heart had been... I managed to find something to fill that gap... to patch up my open wounds and mend my deep seated scars... only to have my new found heart torn from my chest and ripped into shreds.... oh well... it's my own fault for trusting my emotions again... I'm such the hopeless romantic... guess it's back to lonesomeness and emotional self-destruction again...